death by paper cut











{August 9, 2010}   being chinese, being ambivalent

i am chinese when i mourn for those massacred by the japanese both in singapore and china.

i am not chinese when the chinese show a blatant lack of civil consciousness.

i am chinese when i pride in the tenacity and iron will of the pioneer overseas laborers.

i am not chinese when individual aspirations are brushed aside for the collective.

i am chinese when family and friends gather at a noisy restaurant to feast.

i am not chinese when banquets are used as a show of wealth and standing at weddings.

i am chinese when we speak of uninterrupted cultural practices that span 5 millennia.

i am not chinese when women are thought to be inferior to men.

i am chinese when i traverse the streets of chinatowns of San Francisco and Melbourne.

i am not chinese when i visit the chinatown of Singapore that is a big chinatown in itself.

i am chinese in singapore because it says so on my identity card.

i am not chinese when i introduce myself overseas; singaporean first, chinese if that matters, second.

i will always look chinese because my dna cannot be altered.

but i will not always celebrate being chinese.

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Debbie says:

Perfectly articulated. I totally relate. Thanks SW.



ser says:

i only like to be associated with being chinese when it comes to the values.

other than that, i am pretty non-chinese. haha



steelwool says:

what kind of values?



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